notes of a native son 一个土生子的笔记.docVIP

Notes?of?a?Native?Son??? By?James?Baldwin The?year?which?preceded?my?fathers?death?had?made?a?great?change?in?my?life.?I?had?been?living?in?New?Jersey,?working?in?defense?plants,?working?and?living?among?southerners,?white?and?black.?I??knew??about??the??south,?of?course,??and??about?how?southerners?treated?Negroes?and?how?they?expected?them?to?behave,?but?it?had?never?entered?my?mind?that?anyone?would?look?at?me?and?expect?me?to?behave?that?way.?I?learned?in?New?Jersey?that?to?be?a?Negro?meant,?precisely,?that?one?was?never?looked?at?but?was?simply?at?the?mercy?of?the?reflexes?the?color?of?ones?skin?caused?in?other?people.?I?acted?in?New?Jersey?as?I?had?always?acted,?that?is?as?though?I?thought?a?great?deal?of?myself----I?had?to?act?that?way----with?results?that?were,?simply,?unbelievable.?I?had?scarcely?arrived?before?I?had?earned?the?enmity,?which?was?extraordinarily?ingenious,?of?all?my?superiors?and?nearly?all?my?co-workers.?In?the?beginning,?to?make?matters?worse,?I?simply?did?not?know?what?was?happening.?I?did?not?know?what?I?had?done,?and?I?shortly?began?to?wonder?what?anyone?could?possibly?do,?to?bring?about?such?unanimous,?active,?and?unbearably?vocal?hostility.?I?knew?about?jim-crow?but?I?had?never?experienced?it.?I?went?to?the?same?self-service?restaurant?three?times?and?stood?with?all?the?Princeton?boys?before?the?counter,?waiting?for?a?hamburger?and?coffee;?it?was?always?an?extraordinarily?long?time?before?anything?was?set?before?me;?but?it?was?not?until?the?fourth?visit?that?I?learned?that,?in?fact,?nothing?had?ever?been?set?before?me:?I?had?simply?picked?something?up.?Negroes?were?not?served?here,?I?was?told,?and?they?had?been?waiting?for?me?to?realize?that?I?was?the?only?Negro?present.?Once?I?was?told?this,?I?determined?to?go?there?all?the?time.?But?now?they?were?ready?for?me?and,?though?some?dreadful?scenes?were?subsequently?enacted?in?that?restaurant,?I?never?ate?there?again.  It?was?the?same?story?all?over?New?Jersey,?in?bars,?bowling?alley