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PAGE PAGE 1 妈妈,想说抱你不容易 　　EversinceIlefthome15yearsagotherelationshipbetweenmymotherandIhassteadilyworsened.1）Inhindsightitwasneververygood，butit’staken15yearsofcounsellingand2）soul-searchingtorealisethat.ThefactofthematterismymotherandIdon’tlikeeachothermuch.Wedon’thateeachother.We’rejustsortofindifferent. 　　MymotherandIlivehundredsofmilesapartand，asthecaseofmostofmyfriends，thisshouldmeanthatvisits“home”（thoughInevercallitthatinthewaythatotherpeopledo）shouldbetimesofjoyandexcitement.Insteadtheyareweekends（sincethatcanrarelybelonger）oftense，politeconversation，bothofusdesperatelysearchingforsomethingincommontotalkabout（usuallywhatshe’scurrentlywatchingontelevision）. 　　自从我离家到如今的15年里，母亲与我的关系一直持续恶化。现在回过头来看，其实我俩的关系从来就不是很好，但我却是费了15年时间的心理辅导和自我反省来明白这个事实。事实上，母亲和我并不怎么喜欢彼此。我们不憎恨对方。我们就是有那么点儿冷淡。 　　我的母亲和我住得有几百英里远，如果让我大多数的朋友来说，回“家”（虽然我从不像其他人那样将它称之为“家”）应该是喜悦和兴奋的时刻。但事实上，这些回家的周末（甚少超过周休二日）是那么的气氛紧张，充满客气拘束的对话，我们都拼命地寻找某些共同话题来聊（通常是她时下正在看的电视节目）。 　　Asathirtysomethingwomanonthevergeofbecomingamothermyself，Iamconstantlysurroundedbyremindersthatmymumshouldbemybestfriend.Youthfulmothersgoingtosalonswiththeirbest-frienddaughters.Becauseit’sallsoalientome，Itendtobecomesomewhat3）fixated.Lookingbeyondtheprincipalplotlinesoffilmsandbecomeobsessedwiththepartsthatinvolveamotheranddaughteroralarge，lovingfamilyheadedupbya4）quirkymatriarch.WhenthefilmMammaMia！cameout，Iwenttoseeitwithagirlfriendforabitofalaugh.ItwasmainlyaboutloveaffairsbetweenMerylStreepandherexes，andherdaughter’swedding，butformeitwasabouttheextraordinaryesteeminwhichherdaughterheldhermumandtheaffectionbetweenthem.AsIwatched，Iwas，asalways，bewilderedbytheapparentlynaturalbondthatmothersanddaughtershaveonscreen.MyfriendSuzyhasthesortofrelationshipwithhermumthat5）bafflesandfascinatesme. 　　Ididn’thaveanunhappyupbringing.Iwasn’taparticularlyhappychildbutthatwasn’tdowntochildabuseorneglect.Iwasclothed，andfed，Ihadballetlessons，Iwenttouniversity.Iknew—andknow—thatthere’salwayssomewheretostayifIneeditandprobablymoneytoborrowifnecessary.Butsad，