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Daily Affirmations 每天对自己大声说：我很棒 　　I was 18 the first time a therapist2） tried to get me to embrace the idea of daily affirmations. I was dealing with depression， anxiety， and an eating disorder， and the only thing I told myself regularly was that I was the most terrible， disgusting person on Earth. Daily affirmations， the therapist told me， were little sayings I could use to combat the default3） negativity that was always running through my mind. It sounds dumb， she said. But it works. She gave me a little box of cards， each with a happy image and a saying such as I am a good person， or I deserve recovery， or I am lovable and capable of sharing love with others. I rifled through4） them on my bed， rolling my eyes at each card and feeling as if Id been transported to one of those old Stuart Smalley5） sketches from Saturday Night Live6）， where now-Senator Al Franken7） would parody8） the entire idea of daily affirmations with his signature catchphrase9）， I am good enough， Im smart enough， and doggone it10）， people like me！ In short， I felt like an idiot. This， I decided， was not for me. 　　So for years I kept up my typical routine11） of doing the difficult work that recovery and treatment entails12）， and then retreating home， looking in the mirror， and thinking， Youre a piece of crap13）. It was so automatic， so natural， that I didnt even recognize that I was essentially undoing hours of hard work just by allowing such thoughts to take control as theyd always done. I started wondering why I couldnt make recovery work， why I never seemed to feel better. When I began to relapse14） this year， I didnt even notice， because these feelings had become so normal. 　　While struggling through outpatient15） treatment last month， I came to rely on repeated spins of Fiona Apples16） The Idler Wheel ... both for comfort and catharsis17）， and I went back and read the interviews shed given after its release. I felt like I could hear the darker and lighter parts of myself in her songs， an